In January I had wondered if and how I would make it through the days that followed. It’s April and I realise that I did make it through those days and through many other days I felt I just couldn’t. God’s grace is beyond anything I’ve experienced. I’m thankful my life isn’t structured by how I feel, but the truth that God has spoken into my life through his word. Truths that don’t change. So, I don’t ignore how I feel or the realities of my life – I tried that and it didn’t work. No, but I take them to God and continue to. He doesn’t ignore them, so I shouldn’t.

He sees my fears and says “do not be afraid.” “Be still and know that I am God.” He sees weariness and says “come to me.” “My grace is sufficient.” He sees self condemnation and says “I am your Salvation.” He sees rejections and says “nothing can separate you from my love.” He sees heartbreak and says “I am near” “I heal and bind up wounds.” He sees doubt and says “trust me”. He sees pain and he reminds me that it’s sanctifying and he’s with me through and through.

With confidence in him, I plough on… through temptations, loneliness, joys, distractions, and other things that come with living. Becoming more and more conscious of my utter need and dependence on him, I’m learning how to lean on his everlasting arms.

By his grace I will make it through today, tomorrow and however many other days he has written out for me. And when my days on this earth end, it will really only just be the beginning.