I am changing

Just reflecting on the reality that most things take time. Progress is a factor of time. Growth is a factor of time. Developing good habits and disciplines take time. Patience. There’s grace for even this moment. This very minute as I type these words, God is at work in me. Grace from the one who holds the times and seasons in his hands.

These thoughts came this evening as I had the urge to do something other than watch a series on Netflix or Amazon in a moment of free time. Instead, I had the urge to tidy my room. Usually it would take it becoming really messy for me to make myself tidy it up. But today I just thought “let me tidy up and vacuum”. This is grace I feel. It’s a strong feeling that this is one of these moments that almost feels like a whisper that… “See? it is possible. You can change. By my grace you can change and you are changing.”

I am thankful for the how God pays attention to the details of my life in a way no one ever can. It is days like this that reminds me that I don’t need the things I need as much as I think I need them. I catch a glimpse of the endless satisfaction that comes from resting in the bosom of Christ. And for a little moment I’m at total peace, unaffected by the cares of this world. A glimpse of heaven. I wish I would never lose sight of God’s grace.

Year 2018

My survival this year has been supernatural. How God has sustained me despite many trials. How his word has steadied me when I was shaky and struggling to balance. How he continues to heal through painful circumstances. How he has been the answer in dumbfounding circumstances. How he has provided in my lack a-many. How he has been God in countless other ways, known and unknown to me.

He hasn’t just done these things and left me to it, he continues to. To sustain, to steady, to heal, to satisfy, to protect. I feel the battle for my soul, and I’m thankful for the strength of my God. I pray to draw closer to him in the coming year. No matter what comes, he’s got me. I pray to be more restful and thankful.

The sanctification continues….