I am changing

Just reflecting on the reality that most things take time. Progress is a factor of time. Growth is a factor of time. Developing good habits and disciplines take time. Patience. There’s grace for even this moment. This very minute as I type these words, God is at work in me. Grace from the one who holds the times and seasons in his hands.

These thoughts came this evening as I had the urge to do something other than watch a series on Netflix or Amazon in a moment of free time. Instead, I had the urge to tidy my room. Usually it would take it becoming really messy for me to make myself tidy it up. But today I just thought “let me tidy up and vacuum”. This is grace I feel. It’s a strong feeling that this is one of these moments that almost feels like a whisper that… “See? it is possible. You can change. By my grace you can change and you are changing.”

I am thankful for the how God pays attention to the details of my life in a way no one ever can. It is days like this that reminds me that I don’t need the things I need as much as I think I need them. I catch a glimpse of the endless satisfaction that comes from resting in the bosom of Christ. And for a little moment I’m at total peace, unaffected by the cares of this world. A glimpse of heaven. I wish I would never lose sight of God’s grace.

Promises Promises

Journal Entry 11/10/2018

I just read a post on Instagram that said something in the line of “do not rely or build your life around the promises of people” and it really resounded with me due to things I’ve experienced. But if that was the start and end of it, then it would be a miserable reality… for me anyway.  I wasn’t built to do life on my own.

As a Christian, I am thankful for the hope I have in Christ. It is a life-saving, life transforming hope. God has his promises for his own. Promises that are sure as he is. I ought to learn them, hope in them and live on.

On a cloudy day like today when memories of disappointments (inner and outer) may threaten to overwhelm, it especially helps to remember. Come rain, come shine,  I don’t have to rely on others, neither do I have to rely on myself; I can rely on God. He works through us all. Our disappointments, let downs, set-backs, everything. So, as I write this , I inhale and exhale, sigh and stretch, ready for whatever comes next.

Mind scribbles – Part 1/2

Lies trend so much these days

So well disguised as “truth”

So crafty…

Division disguised as “unity”

Unbridled indulgences called “love”

“Woke” but actually fast asleep

Said “oppressed” actually the oppressor

The quest for “knowledge” leading to more foolishness

“Freedom” that’s actually slavery

Intellectual rubbish

“Well spoken” but nothing spoken

Spineless, easily offended, politically “correct”

Mind-numbing, repetitive, its-all-about-me,

You-disagree-with-me-so-you-must-hate-me,

“Us” vs “them” narratives

I just want to switch off sometimes

Get me off this orbit around the sun

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